First and foremost: “Love Like” is on the radio! Thanks to Russ Davis and Jam 88.3’s #FreshFilter for taking a chance on awkward old me. You can also stream and/or DL the song from Amplify.ph:
The novelty may never wear off. I still get all giddy each time I hear the song playing on air! I guess it’s true that there are some things you really never grow out of, or get over.
Case in point: I am still and will always be terrified of performing. People always think I mean “anxious” or “upset” or maybe even “afraid,” but I do mean exactly that: terrified. I get physically sick at the thought of singing in front of other people. I’m scared to death of making a mistake–and I always do, mind you, so each performance is a stilted series of carefully hidden death scenes in between patches of singing my heart out.
“Why do it?” You might ask me that, but the real question is: “Why didn’t you do it sooner?” I have an intense love/hate relationship with the music that I make, and the bottom line is that I can’t live without it. Performing live is a public reaffirmation of that love/hate; or at the very least, a direct admission of its existence. Why deny such an integral part of me?
As hokey as this sounds, I like to think of singing to a crowd as my version of extreme sports. The probability of catastrophic failure is high, but you can’t beat the adrenaline rush.
That being said, this year I performed live as A Problem Like Maria for the first time last June at Fete dela Musique’s Chillout Stage. I’ve had three other gigs since, and I’m still alive! Hallelujah.
We MAY have a surprise (or two) in store for you on the 21st; we’ll see. Definitely bringing some stickers, and maybe even a few giveaways! See you at my shows. <3